Does he honestly love me or does he just "love" me because he knows he can do stuff with me....?

in my opinion you cant really hold cheating against him seeing as you cheated on him twice..and i also dont think you can "kinda" cheat...you either cheated or not...also you dont want to be in a proper relationship?? then why would he be buying you stuff for occasions? unless you buy him stuff for his bday and he didnt buy you anythin for yours then it doesnt matter...plus every guy wants to "do stuff" its just how they are! get used to it :P